微故事: 大笑癮 vs 愛情癮 (東加豆) Micro-story: Laughter Addiction vs. Love Addiction (by Tonkabean)

九十四歲的爺爺喝了一口茶，忽然看著阿丁說： " 我常懷疑，究竟你嫲嫲是毒品，還是愛情本身就是毒品？ " 爺爺說不知道，因為他一生人就只有嫲嫲這個女人，嫲嫲=女人、女人=嫲嫲，從此，他對覺得女人都是（生人勿近）。

阿丁聽得一愣。他想起自己每天練習的大笑瑜伽，只要兩三天沒有刻意大笑，身體就像戒毒般周身不自然。

曾幾何時，阿丁對大笑瑜伽也充滿熱情，甚至激情，日日期待，天天追練。那時多巴胺瘋狂分泌，期待每次橫膈膜震動帶來的強烈亢奮。

突然，有一天他靜了下來。 

不，不是突然，是逐漸停下來，阿丁有一種莫名其妙的擔心。

爺爺說："激情會過去，友愛才真實。"

阿丁和爺爺說起大笑瑜伽的事情，但爺爺卻把話題回到嫲嫲身上，來來去去都說嫲嫲與他的恩怨情仇! 無錯, 他是用(恩怨情仇)來形容他與嫲嫲的婚姻關係，甚至用武俠片來形容和嫲嫲的相處方式，你一招我一掌，但從來沒有內傷過，心裡各自都有一個武術指導。一個九十四歲的老人，思路卻很清晰。

那天爺爺的毒品論，阿丁翻開大笑筆記，讀到（持續練習能重塑大腦的科學根據）。他忽然覺得：初期的無條件大笑靠的是激情推動，但長久下來，化學反應會退潮，大腦早已建立起穩固的神經迴路，將它刻進了身體記憶。

這不是不愛，而是激情過後，演變成了最踏實的（友愛）。

每天的線上練習，阿丁都為自己打開大笑之門，奇妙的是，每當投入地笑，笑完之後，都有一種豁然開朗。還有一些熟悉的面孔，儘管不常聊天，但看見大家規律地呼吸、做同一種動作、掛著一致的笑容，心裡就踏實。

"其實你知不知道我在說什麼" 阿丁笑著問爺爺。

爺爺也笑了笑："那你又知不知道我在說什麼？如果你知道我在說什麼，我就知道你在說什麼。"

"你曾有過大笑癮，我也有過愛情癮。但如果缺少了這種癮，我們的人生就會很笨。"

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Micro-story: Laughter Addiction vs. Love Addiction (by Tonkabean)

The ninety-four-year-old grandfather took a sip of tea, suddenly looked at Ah Ding, and said, "I often wonder, was your grandmother a drug, or is love itself the drug?" Grandfather said he didn't know, because she was the only woman he had ever had in his life. To him, Grandmother equaled woman, and woman equaled Grandmother.  After her, he felt all women were "Keep Away."

Ah Ding was stunned. He thought of his daily Laughter Yoga practice. If he went just two or three days without laughing on purpose, his body would feel totally uncomfortable, just like going through withdrawal.

Once upon a time, Ah Ding was full of passion—even obsession—for Laughter Yoga. He looked forward to it every day and practiced relentlessly. Back then, dopamine was pumping wildly, and he craved the intense excitement brought by every vibration of his diaphragm.

Then, one day, he quieted down.

No, it wasn't sudden. It stopped gradually, leaving Ah Ding with a strange kind of worry.

Grandfather said, "Passion will pass; companionate love is what’s real."

Ah Ding tried to talk to Grandfather about Laughter Yoga, but Grandfather always brought the conversation back to Grandmother. He kept talking about his love-hate relationship with her! That’s right, he used the words "love and hate" to describe his marriage. He even used martial arts movies to describe how they got along—you throw a punch, I return a palm, but neither ever got hurt inside, because each had their own martial arts director in their heart. For a ninety-four-year-old man, his mind was incredibly sharp.

Hearing Grandfather’s drug theory that day, Ah Ding opened his Laughter Yoga notes and read about the scientific proof that consistent practice can reshape the brain. He suddenly realized: in the beginning, unconditional laughter is driven by passion. But over time, the chemical reaction fades. The brain has already built stable neural pathways, carving it into the body's memory.

This wasn't a loss of love. It was passion evolving into the most grounded kind of companionate love.

During the online sessions every day, Ah Ding opened the door to laughter for himself. The magical thing was, whenever he laughed wholeheartedly, he felt completely enlightened afterward. Seeing those familiar faces—even though they didn't chat often—breathing regularly, making the same movements, and wearing the same smiles made his heart feel grounded, comfortable, and at peace.

"Do you actually know what I’m talking about?" Ah Ding asked Grandfather with a smile.

Grandfather smiled too. "Then do you know what I’m talking about? If you know what I’m talking about, then I know what you’re talking about."

He added, "You once had a laughter addiction, and I had a love addiction. But if we lacked this kind of addiction, our lives would be pretty foolish.

End.

寫作日期：2026年5月26日 

完成時間 : 16:36pm

圖 Illustration: 人工智豆 (Ai-Bean)

文 Written by: 東加豆 (Tonkabean)

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